Pt 2. of My Miniseries- the Mental & Emotional Rollercoaster ride of breaking free from a Narcissist's hold on my Soul, which eventually led me to a Spiritual Breakthrough (aka a Tower moment)
My incubator was the same but it never even occurred to me that she was 1 until a few years ago- long after I forgave her for the abuse, neglect, & abandonment she put me thru. Having been there myself, I Am Very Happy U Are still Here with the rest of us, & taking your life back🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
Causes suicidal tendencies due to con-fusion or lies fusing with truths. Corruption of the mind and madness cleaned the mess of my stepfather’s suicide because of her and that was when I started the process of disconnecting from said incubator.
I like this: con-fusion or lies fusing with truths, never thought of it that way, but it makes perfect sense. & unfortunately dealing with a narc all too often does create at the very least suicidal ideology (& one thing which I haven't actually written about yet as it wasn't part of my recovery process- it was during the late summer 2016 when I started really losin my shit completely & honestly don't think about very often- but I actually went so far as to tell all of my family members goodbye in a group text, didn't state what I was planning but my lil sis knew instantly- not 1 of my prouder moments)
Then you will like more of my creations on this platform. A true wordsmith can remove the word spells that shackle the mind the enslavement of mankind. I had to give up all but two family members. And in the process of losing everything I worked for. The final liberation is in effect now. Give up everything to be reborn. Ahhhhh
That's the very least that I hope for by diggin up these dusty ass memories- lol it really is something to realize 1. How long ago this actually was & 2. How far I've come & grown since then. I was a walking disaster just to myself, I can't even imagine how I appeared to my fam😞😞
Every time a shattered memory comes back sit with it until you are comfortable with it. It takes strength but eventually you have to work back and get all the lost memories back to create a true picture of the life and then from the knowing you find you. Every time you will get more memories back some good and some bad the bad ones will have to get dealt with or transmuted and then again and again but you can take it all back for yourself.
Thanks for sharing Reina! I grew up with narcissistic parents - one covert and the other overt. I have lost decades of life to the dysfunctional self-hating conditioning I had been programmed into as the family scapegoat. There is victory that can be had once we see the truth of our power and their weakness and dysfunction. Thanks again for sharing your experience 🙏🏾💫🤗
I believe my biological set-up was the same- my sperm donor was definitely out of the closet with his narcissism & megalomania along with a serious appetite for brutal violence, my incubator was undercover on all of the above but matched him across the board- it's only been thru sharing all of these bits & pieces of getting this particular narc out of my life that I've full on realized just how narcissistic both of the humans responsible for loving & protecting me truly were. As always Solarah, Mad Love & Respect🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
Thank U Chris, I Really Love All U Guys on here, All the genuine support means Everything & yruly leaves me feeling like U guys are extended fam that I just haven't seen in forever🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
💥 This isn’t just survival - this is a goddamn rebirth. The way you walked through fire and came out stronger? That’s power. That’s healing. That’s the energy of someone who doesn’t just move on but ascends. ✨ And the way you did it? Brilliant. You didn’t just leave, you became aware of every inch of yourself, every shadow, every pattern, every crack where a manipulator could slip through. You didn’t just recognize his game: you dissected your entire inner universe, broke it down to its atomic core, and rebuilt it into an indestructible version of yourself. 🔥 This isn’t a story of escape: this is a story of total liberation. 🙏 Thank you for writing this - it’s the manifesto of a new existence. And it’s glorious.
Wow, that is one helluva Compliment Queen👑👑 I Thank U 1000x over for that. U truly brought a smile to my face and I am happy that a part of Me was capable of evoking that much feeling in U🥰🥰 I Appreciate U🥰🥰👑👑💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿🌴🌴
Ya well said run like your life depends upon it.
Raised by a female narc and had to learn how not to think myself with most everyone around me reinforcing the narcissistic tendencies.
My incubator was the same but it never even occurred to me that she was 1 until a few years ago- long after I forgave her for the abuse, neglect, & abandonment she put me thru. Having been there myself, I Am Very Happy U Are still Here with the rest of us, & taking your life back🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
Incubator 🤔😛
Ya took me about 30 years to figure it out after the programming wore off. Wtf
Causes suicidal tendencies due to con-fusion or lies fusing with truths. Corruption of the mind and madness cleaned the mess of my stepfather’s suicide because of her and that was when I started the process of disconnecting from said incubator.
I like this: con-fusion or lies fusing with truths, never thought of it that way, but it makes perfect sense. & unfortunately dealing with a narc all too often does create at the very least suicidal ideology (& one thing which I haven't actually written about yet as it wasn't part of my recovery process- it was during the late summer 2016 when I started really losin my shit completely & honestly don't think about very often- but I actually went so far as to tell all of my family members goodbye in a group text, didn't state what I was planning but my lil sis knew instantly- not 1 of my prouder moments)
Then you will like more of my creations on this platform. A true wordsmith can remove the word spells that shackle the mind the enslavement of mankind. I had to give up all but two family members. And in the process of losing everything I worked for. The final liberation is in effect now. Give up everything to be reborn. Ahhhhh
Seems like yeshua could word smith blockages away.
But this last time it’s just material things I’m sovereign in the soul now.
If just one person benefits from this Reina it is worth time you give people 😊💜
That's the very least that I hope for by diggin up these dusty ass memories- lol it really is something to realize 1. How long ago this actually was & 2. How far I've come & grown since then. I was a walking disaster just to myself, I can't even imagine how I appeared to my fam😞😞
Every time a shattered memory comes back sit with it until you are comfortable with it. It takes strength but eventually you have to work back and get all the lost memories back to create a true picture of the life and then from the knowing you find you. Every time you will get more memories back some good and some bad the bad ones will have to get dealt with or transmuted and then again and again but you can take it all back for yourself.
That is the way of the shaman the mind is the soul. They just changed the language and words to confuse and enslave. Fuckem all.
Thanks for sharing Reina! I grew up with narcissistic parents - one covert and the other overt. I have lost decades of life to the dysfunctional self-hating conditioning I had been programmed into as the family scapegoat. There is victory that can be had once we see the truth of our power and their weakness and dysfunction. Thanks again for sharing your experience 🙏🏾💫🤗
I believe my biological set-up was the same- my sperm donor was definitely out of the closet with his narcissism & megalomania along with a serious appetite for brutal violence, my incubator was undercover on all of the above but matched him across the board- it's only been thru sharing all of these bits & pieces of getting this particular narc out of my life that I've full on realized just how narcissistic both of the humans responsible for loving & protecting me truly were. As always Solarah, Mad Love & Respect🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
Mad respect Reina.
Thank U Chris, I Really Love All U Guys on here, All the genuine support means Everything & yruly leaves me feeling like U guys are extended fam that I just haven't seen in forever🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
💥 This isn’t just survival - this is a goddamn rebirth. The way you walked through fire and came out stronger? That’s power. That’s healing. That’s the energy of someone who doesn’t just move on but ascends. ✨ And the way you did it? Brilliant. You didn’t just leave, you became aware of every inch of yourself, every shadow, every pattern, every crack where a manipulator could slip through. You didn’t just recognize his game: you dissected your entire inner universe, broke it down to its atomic core, and rebuilt it into an indestructible version of yourself. 🔥 This isn’t a story of escape: this is a story of total liberation. 🙏 Thank you for writing this - it’s the manifesto of a new existence. And it’s glorious.
Wow, that is one helluva Compliment Queen👑👑 I Thank U 1000x over for that. U truly brought a smile to my face and I am happy that a part of Me was capable of evoking that much feeling in U🥰🥰 I Appreciate U🥰🥰👑👑💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿🌴🌴
And that, my Queen, is the magic of energy well shared! 👑💜 Grateful for you too! Keep shining. ✨🧿☯️