Pt 3. of My Miniseries- the Mental & Emotional Rollercoaster ride of breaking free from a Narcissist's hold on my Soul, which eventually led me to a Spiritual Breakthrough (aka a Tower moment)
This is an excellent write and for you to address the bi polar issue is great. It’s just a label that stigmatizes people and great points you made girl. It’s nothing new but rebranded over time to fit a new language and age within mankinds creations. Nothing more than a imbalance in emotions that can happen to anyone that is traumatized or taught narcissism as a child. These are shackles of the enslavement of mankind and break those shackles Reina. Mankind was enslaved with actual shackles until the enslavement masters found a far better way of using the mind in a shadow enslavement system of which we are witnessing its ending with the total corruption and collapse of the minds. Love it girl 💜💜💜
I understand completely the desperation caused by emotions controlling my mind. Limerence has come to my attention and I am truly grateful to have a name for my particular insanity. You will be lead to the answers you need.
I remember all of that pain, all of those conflicting emotions and trying to walk away from the toxicity whilst still, perversely, being 'in love' with my abuser. He was, like you have said here, the cure and the cause. Healing from narcissistic abuse takes a mighty long time. I'm single by choice now, and the peace of mind is wonderful.
Thank you for being so candid and sharing your experience. Have no doubt that it will help many to free themselves, too ❤️🙏
Thank U Susie, I appreciate u sharing your experience as well, & I have been honestly single since him, I've gotten involved with a few guys here & there but every time I've been reminded why I'm still single, lol- none of them have made it passed a 90 day probationary period🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️ Glad U made it & Blessings to U my Friend🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
One of the hardest things to overcome in abuse - narcissistic abuse especially- is coming to grips that you’re not “the crazy one.” These people will put you in a hospital and call you “mentally ill” before they take any responsibility for the way they have wounded you, others….and ultimately themselves.
My family sat down and watched me get diagnosed as a teenager and denied the family trauma to my doctors in order to save face…instead of saving my life. All of them.
I had doctors turn on ME - in my time of need - because my family lied and made it seem like I was “crazy” and making things up. I was medicated under pretence, and then shamed for being sick and “useless”…..and I wasn’t even an adult yet.
Whew! That “bi-polar” part took me somewhere.
So glad you got out. And I’m also glad that writing was one of those weapons you wielded for your own self-liberation. Thank you for your vulnerability, and for sharing 🙏🏾💫
"Trapped with the ghost of someone who doesn't exist."
And that's the point. At least it is for me. You described it exactly. Allowing that ghost to enter my mind and manipulate me is the thing that angered me the most. And I'm still working on that.
This goes for men too, the push and pull of a borderline personality disorder or dark triad women creates a trauma bond. That trauma bond feels like a physical addiction that a man first has to overcome before he can process the psychological, spiritual, and emotional aspect with a clearer head. There's a physical withdraw at the end of her grand finale discard phase.
100%!! I did actually say something about that specifically at the end of part 2- I do want it abundantly clear that this is a Human issue not a gender issue. My experience was in dealing with a male Narc, which is the reference point of this miniseries- however as I've gotten older I have also realized that not 1 but both of my biologicals were Narcissistic as well & most likely why I've ended up dealing with narc "relationships" in my teen & adult years. My Mission (if u will) in these pieces of my experience are in hopes of highlighting the ugly parts that nobody speaks about so that maybe the next person dealing with this won't have to feel so alone/crazy/ or any other negative attribute which could be associated with it
Thanks for telling your inspirational story, I am amazed at how you were able to pull yourself out from that, and I love how you used writing and poetry to examine your situation. The poetry you wrote is really powerful.
I can’t crack the encrusted cocoon within which I’ve ensconced myself to even think of helping someone else. (Not that anyone asked). It’s lonely and dark in here. I can’t complain. It’s my own creation.
Thank you for your sharing your story, you are so incredibly inspiring, your writing will touch many people. I would love to see this as a play or a movie!!
I gotchu mamita, lm outta work in a few- I'll hyu about 7-730??
This is an excellent write and for you to address the bi polar issue is great. It’s just a label that stigmatizes people and great points you made girl. It’s nothing new but rebranded over time to fit a new language and age within mankinds creations. Nothing more than a imbalance in emotions that can happen to anyone that is traumatized or taught narcissism as a child. These are shackles of the enslavement of mankind and break those shackles Reina. Mankind was enslaved with actual shackles until the enslavement masters found a far better way of using the mind in a shadow enslavement system of which we are witnessing its ending with the total corruption and collapse of the minds. Love it girl 💜💜💜
I understand completely the desperation caused by emotions controlling my mind. Limerence has come to my attention and I am truly grateful to have a name for my particular insanity. You will be lead to the answers you need.
I remember all of that pain, all of those conflicting emotions and trying to walk away from the toxicity whilst still, perversely, being 'in love' with my abuser. He was, like you have said here, the cure and the cause. Healing from narcissistic abuse takes a mighty long time. I'm single by choice now, and the peace of mind is wonderful.
Thank you for being so candid and sharing your experience. Have no doubt that it will help many to free themselves, too ❤️🙏
Thank U Susie, I appreciate u sharing your experience as well, & I have been honestly single since him, I've gotten involved with a few guys here & there but every time I've been reminded why I'm still single, lol- none of them have made it passed a 90 day probationary period🤦🏽♀️🤦🏽♀️ Glad U made it & Blessings to U my Friend🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
You're welcome. It's really good to connect with my Badass Warrior Goddess Sisters 🥰🫶💪💜💚
I 100% AGREE!! Save some space for Our Brothers Too🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
One of the hardest things to overcome in abuse - narcissistic abuse especially- is coming to grips that you’re not “the crazy one.” These people will put you in a hospital and call you “mentally ill” before they take any responsibility for the way they have wounded you, others….and ultimately themselves.
My family sat down and watched me get diagnosed as a teenager and denied the family trauma to my doctors in order to save face…instead of saving my life. All of them.
I had doctors turn on ME - in my time of need - because my family lied and made it seem like I was “crazy” and making things up. I was medicated under pretence, and then shamed for being sick and “useless”…..and I wasn’t even an adult yet.
Whew! That “bi-polar” part took me somewhere.
So glad you got out. And I’m also glad that writing was one of those weapons you wielded for your own self-liberation. Thank you for your vulnerability, and for sharing 🙏🏾💫
Excellent
"Trapped with the ghost of someone who doesn't exist."
And that's the point. At least it is for me. You described it exactly. Allowing that ghost to enter my mind and manipulate me is the thing that angered me the most. And I'm still working on that.
Thanks for sharing, Reina.
We can & will all Rise up outta the bs together- Mad Love & Respect🥰🥰💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿
Ya bet. ;-)
This goes for men too, the push and pull of a borderline personality disorder or dark triad women creates a trauma bond. That trauma bond feels like a physical addiction that a man first has to overcome before he can process the psychological, spiritual, and emotional aspect with a clearer head. There's a physical withdraw at the end of her grand finale discard phase.
100%!! I did actually say something about that specifically at the end of part 2- I do want it abundantly clear that this is a Human issue not a gender issue. My experience was in dealing with a male Narc, which is the reference point of this miniseries- however as I've gotten older I have also realized that not 1 but both of my biologicals were Narcissistic as well & most likely why I've ended up dealing with narc "relationships" in my teen & adult years. My Mission (if u will) in these pieces of my experience are in hopes of highlighting the ugly parts that nobody speaks about so that maybe the next person dealing with this won't have to feel so alone/crazy/ or any other negative attribute which could be associated with it
Also on the best case scenario- maybe someone reads these & recognizes it before they're in so deep that it's excruciating to try & get out of.
Thanks for telling your inspirational story, I am amazed at how you were able to pull yourself out from that, and I love how you used writing and poetry to examine your situation. The poetry you wrote is really powerful.
Thank U for that Jenn- having always loved all things art- if I don't like where I'm at in the moment, I can always go on vacation via any form of art
Art is a great escape ❤️.
I can’t crack the encrusted cocoon within which I’ve ensconced myself to even think of helping someone else. (Not that anyone asked). It’s lonely and dark in here. I can’t complain. It’s my own creation.
Thank you for your sharing your story, you are so incredibly inspiring, your writing will touch many people. I would love to see this as a play or a movie!!
Just wow. ❤️