I knew it was a Test...

And Yes I passed

So Today's been a wild ride, started early so upset I went into str8 vibrate mode. Adrenaline pumping, wanting release, but I don't let her take over & come out to play anymore, Not like that. I hate being lied to. I hate passive aggressive. Passive aggressive shows U don't have the cojones to cash the check your alligator mouth wrote. The way I came up, if U are aggressive there ain't nothing passive about it, U either gon run a fair one or shut the fuck up & leave people be. I have worked every single day since I been here, with a smile on my face even when Im so exhausted I have to fight myself to get outta bed. I didn't even get Christmas off. I haven't had a shower, U know Running Water to wash away the sweat, dirt, & animal feces from the day!! I have washed my entire body with a rag in a bowl of hot water from the tea kettle every damn day, since December 5th!! I have only been capable of washing my hair twice since being here. Have only washed my filthy work clothes twice since being here!! But still I drag my ass out that bed every single day without any fuckin complaints and go feed, water, & clean up the critters. I cleared her raised bed garden which she allowed to grow into a small jungle, got bit to hell on both arms by fuckin chiggers. Didn't fuckin complain!! Have tolerated every single week not even getting my full grocery order which often means I'm fasting not only for my health but also for my groceries to stretch for the full week. No fuckin complaints. I deal with it & keep it pushin. But when it came to her refusing to at least take me back to Jacksonville when I'm due to leave was the last damn straw. I felt like a cornered animal & that's not how U really want anyone to feel ever!!

Right after I finished writing I Am Being Tested I heard a directive to text my last Farm host. I didn't because I have a seriously hard time, asking anyone for Help, especially when they have already done a lot for me. As I got ready to head out to the laundromat, She texted me!! Spirit intervened because I couldn't bring myself to follow what I knew I was supposed to do. She asked me a simple question, if I had found my next farm yet, and I broke. I told her exactly what was going on. That woman was at work, stopped what she was doing, called her family in Jacksonville & started moving heaven & earth to try to get me out of here & back to her Farm. Several Beautiful Souls who I had the Blessing of meeting in this lifetime thru Substack, contacted me as well. As well several more of U, My Peoples here, sent out Prayers and Blessings My way.

As I was walking, I didn't even turn on my music this time. I was talking with Spirit. When I walk I scan everything everywhere. In my path was this, just laying innocently in the road:

A message, Everything's gon be alright!! Spirit was listening and responding. A lil further in my walk and I met this baby just soakin up some rays,

and I had to smile to myself. Again the message loud & clear, Relax~ Everything's Gon Be Alright. And by the end of my hike, Proof that it truly is. Between a gift to assist in my travel expenses and my last host, I leave here tomorrow!! I'm going back to my last farm, where they actually Love & Appreciate Me.

My body's killin me from the days journey & I'm sure the pure unadulterated adrenaline explosion this a.m. isn't helping. But tomorrow I will take a Hot Shower for the 1st time since Dec 5th. And I will be somewhere safe, clean, and Peaceful with Loving Humans. I Appreciate Every One of U More than words could ever express. I know I passed the test because 1. I Never exploded, nor did I show her any emotion whatsoever over her triflin behavior, and 2. As much as it made me uncomfortable I put the call out for Help & Accepted the Help that was provided.

Until Next Time, Mad Love and an Abundance of Blessings for U and Your Loved Ones🥰🥰👑👑💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿🌴🌴