I greeted today slowly but did get going, with still a pretty early start. Today I find my anxiety trying to amp up, my guts churning. I know the energy that comes from the main building here is damn near toxic at times, especially when U catch yourself slipping into that lower state of vibration. I’m not the type of person who bitches & complains about shit, & lately I find myself doing so if I’m not paying enough attention to my thoughts & actions. Which literally means I’m falling in line with the rank & file, & that disgusts the shit outta me. It literally feels as if there's a hand wrapped around my throat, that constant steady pressure, the dull aching against your hyoid, not quite cutting off your air but more of a slow undertow of suffocation taking place. I find once again, I am in the midst of an energy harvesting operation. I recognize it all too well. I know why I’m here. This was the first one to accept my request for several reasons. I needed to remember how to engage with these animals and what better place to do that, than where there's a serious tower moment necessary?? I know some of my readers will be completely confused by what I just said, No worries, that part of this message isn't for U. On the other hand, the majority of my fellow Soul Journists, will intuitively (at the least) comprehend exactly what I’m dealing with. While I haven't always appreciated having to be the Detonator, it is part of my scope of tasks in this realm. As I stated in my poetry: A Human Experience I have awakened from the collective amnesia we arrive here with. My malfunction is within the Human portion of the equation that is Me, impatience, once I've figured out the riddle of why, I am over it & want desperately to simply be on my way.
I’m tired now, seemingly more often than not. Even at cutting out 90% of the wheat products I was consuming I still find myself heavier physically than I've been in a while. If U only look at the 3D aspect of this scenario it won't make sense, my dietary intake is decent (not optimum- but decent), my sleep is pretty much the same level as diet, and exercise is actually pretty good. If I went to a “Doctor” they would say, “it's Natural for your age” or “U need to cut your sodium, cholesterol, & protein, have U tried weight watchers??” or “I’m gonna write U a Rx for this new weight management pill…” None of which is the actual problem or solution!! The problem is U will literally become physically heavier when U are parked in the wrong energy. At least this holds true for an empath. U won't even realize until U are in the middle of fighting with your own body how much the energy of others can & does physically effect U. Just when I thought I was on top of my game, I've gotten popped upside the head with several new lessons. So here I am. Ready, waiting, yet still putting in work while simultaneously dialing it back.
I also am having some anxiety (yet again~ tho I try to work that energy off) over the “how” of getting to the next destination. I looked up ticket information. Funny, I did tell greyhound, I would Not be using their services again after the (almost) 2000 mile fiasco trip down here back in May- well there's not any bus route which goes to my next location. The train however, does, and gets me within 5 miles. I still have the issue of resources tho, which I am trying to figure out. Since “Buy Me a Coffee” & Stripe teamed up with their fuckery of trying to hold peoples money hostage (Which They Are Still Currently Doing to One of Our Fellow Substackers!!) I made the decision to Delete my account with them. I will not participate in giving money to more authoritarian corporations. They're making money off of OUR WORK, & Still Trying to STEAL the Rest of OUR INCOME!! All in All I need to figure out how to create $100 to get situated in my next location, with my due date being a lil over a week away. So if anyone has any suggestions, I would greatly Appreciate it.
I know I started this piece by saying Today is a Great Day, and I meant exactly that!! Yes there are struggles, but Nothing which can’t be overcome!! Today is a Great Day Regardless!! Today is a New Day for Learning, Seeing, Hearing, Feeling, Smelling, & Tasting All of the Beauty Life has to Offer. Today is a Great Day for Smiling, Laughing, Loving, Dancing, Singing, Painting, Writing, Reading, Drawing, Building, and Being!! And Yes, U can Be Aware of Your Surroundings (whether in the moment, locally, nationally, and globally) Without Fixating Your Precious Energy On Any of It!! Do U Today!! Do Something That Makes U FEEL the Beauty of LIFE!!
Until Next Time~ Mad Love & Blessings to All Y'All🥰🥰👑👑💜💜☯️☯️🧿🧿🌴🌴
That’s so interesting about the tiredness and physical weight linked to the energy around us. I hadn’t thought of it that way before. You’ll be out of there soon, Reina. Much love 💫🌟
I've noticed my body gains weight as it prepares to releases toxins be it physical toxins (like after a detox) or emotional (after working through something) so my experience aligns with this, the body wants to make sure we're ready to let whatever it is go, so eat your salt sister, we need it to charge up and tell those doctor's to shuv off. hehe. ;) <3 (disclaimer: this is not medical advice LOL)